Oh Jacob... How I feel for you. Even before you were born your life was full of DRAMA... Fighting with your brother in the womb, making your momma think she was CRAZY. YOU remind me of someone, but I won't name names.
Jacob your life would make Jerry Springer blush... If you had a reality show it would be top-rated. I mean really lying, cheating and stealing, almost getting killed by your brother. Everywhere you go you have trouble. I bet you were so thankful every time God rescued you from the drama you got yourself into. Really, how did you think it was gonna turn out when you married sisters? OH and way to go you really did a super job of training those boys up in the way they should go. SUPER DAD... will NOT be your legacy. I'm sorry Jacob, but your life was one HOT MESS and I for one am so THANKFUL. It gives me HOPE. God can redeem even our messes for himself.
DRAMA!!! I hate it. I cause it. I run from it. The only way to get away form DRAMA is to move to some remote island and be all alone, but pretty soon that would get old. Drama is a part of the human experience I suppose. Reading Jacob's story really is a breath of fresh air, because no matter how hard I try to have a drama-free life it has been unattainable. Sometimes it seems that drama hunts me down looking for a prisoner of war. You ever feel that way?
Look at Jacob's life for example. First, he runs away from home and the brother who wants to kill him. When he gets where he's going he decides it's a good idea to marry sisters, and that is constant friction. Then he decides to head back home because he's got problems with the in-laws. Because of God's intervention on his behalf he narrowly escapes big trouble with his Father-n-law. He has to be CONSTANTLY reminded who God is and who God wants him to be. God intervenes on His behalf again as He travels to meet his brother (who's heart change is nothing less than a miracle.) The story just goes on and on... There is so much here to explore, but I think you get the picture. Wasn't it Job who said "man's life is few days and full of trouble." You can't escape it sometimes. Once again I see an imperfect (even dysfunctional) family being used by a gracious and loving God. I see a God who is DETERMINED to bring forth HIS WILL, His plan, and His purpose. I mean really this clan had some issues... but BLESS GOD He used them anyway.
Jacob's messy life is so inspiring to me. YAHWEH is salvation. It's not who we are, it's not what we do, it's not what we have to offer... It's who HE is, what HE does, and what HE has to offer. God was determined to bring forth HIS SON in the fullness of time to REDEEM a messy people for HIMSELF. Thankfully nothing and no one, no amount of drama can keep God from doing what He has determined to do. He is the one who seeks us. Nothing is too hard for him. No situation without Hope because of Him. HE will make beauty from ashes. He will redeem the years the locusts have eaten away. He will change hearts and work ALL things to the good of those who love Him and who are called according to HIS PURPOSE. He takes the tax collectors, the sinners, the stinky old fishermen and uses them. He can take our mess and make it amazing.
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Sunday, January 12, 2014
Not what I expected...
I've been reading Genesis this week... People always say you can't exhaust God's Word and I believe that. Now though I'm starting to understand that it's really because we are ever changing... therefore you never read the same thing the same way.
Take the great love story of Isaac and Rebekah The first time I read this story I was a brand new Christian at the ripe young age of 19. To me at that point in my life this was the most inspirational love story in the Bible. I focused in on the parts of God leading Abraham's servant right to the "the right woman" and it all played out so perfectly. I was inspired by the love at first sight, dreamy feel of Rebekah's first meeting with Isaac and I just knew it was "Happy Ever After".
As a baby Christian at the age of 19 this story had captured my fancy... God was gonna work it all out. I was a new creation... My life from this point on would be cloudless days, filled with rainbows and I would meet the "right" one, and we would be perfect together and we would be perfect parents and because we followed Jesus EVERYTHING would be PERFECT... Idealistic, but true nonetheless. Maybe it's youth that makes us dream such impossible dreams.
17 years later I read this story so differently... I bet Rebekah didn't expect things to turn out the way they do. I bet when she was swept up onto that camel, rescued from her father's house, and delivered straight into the arms of Mr. Right, she was thinking this is the beginning of the rest of my life. I bet she had a vision of perfection in mind.
Maybe it's my experience that makes me think she was SHOCKED with reality. Was she confused and upset with 20 years of barrenness. In a culture where children were highly prized and the most important reason for marriage I imagine that she was NOT expecting to have any trouble producing a child. THIS IS NOT WHAT SHE EXPECTED.
After her husband pleaded with the Lord (lesson 1... hardship draws us to the Lord), she became pregnant, but we know that this pregnancy didn't go the way she expected. Again we see a situation that draws her to the Lord. She goes to Him to find out what is going on.
Rebekah that young idealist is learning that the harsh realities of life make us draw near to a loving God.
I bet Rebekah didn't expect to behave so imperfectly... I know I didn't. She probably expected Mr. Right to always do and say the right thing. She probably expected Mr. and Mrs. Right to bear perfectly delightful children... but as the story goes this didn't happen. In fact the legacy of the patriarch's family is filled with people behaving badly. Not at all what you would expect to find in God's chosen family...
The problems in her family are enough to break any mom's heart. We could just inject in this story our own story, because I''m sure we can all relate. This is not at all what we expected. At one point Rebekah even tell Isaac that "I am weary of my life." Have you ever been there? Has life turned out less perfect than you thought it would?
What can I learn from Rebekah's life? ALOT. First and foremost the story is not about Mr. or Mrs. Right. The story is not about them at all. Mr. and Mrs. Right don't exist. The story is about the graciousness of a PERFECT God who chooses a regular family to bring forth His son so that we can be saved from our sins.
Secondly, I can see from Rebekah's life that LIFE IS NOT PERFECT. Life is HARD, life is painful, and life can make you weary. The weariness of life can be just the thing that draws us into a deeper relationship with God. Our faults, failures and weakness are the perfect backdrop to see God's AMAZING GRACE.
The failure of others (husbands and children) to meet our expectations of perfection can be just the thing that highlights our need for a relationship with a loving, perfect God, who will never leave us or forsake us.
Finally, this story is our story because life was never meant to be perfect. This place is not our home. The struggles of life serve as a constant reminder that Jesus is preparing a place for us. THAT place is the place of NO MORE tears, NO MORE dying, NO MORE pain. That place where God will be our God and HE will dwell with us is where our affection should be.
This life has moments of pure perfection... but they are fleeting. This life has joy, but NOTHING in this life can compare to what He has planned for those who love him.
This story has become for me a reminder that sometimes life is painful, BUT God is for me. It reminds me that I am NOT perfect and that's not why God chose me. My husband is not perfect, my children are not perfect. This story reminds me that in spite of all that God loves me and went to extraordinary lengths to show HIS great love for ordinary, messed up, always doing the wrong thing people!!! OH what Good news that is, because I could NEVER live up to the life I did expect.
Take the great love story of Isaac and Rebekah The first time I read this story I was a brand new Christian at the ripe young age of 19. To me at that point in my life this was the most inspirational love story in the Bible. I focused in on the parts of God leading Abraham's servant right to the "the right woman" and it all played out so perfectly. I was inspired by the love at first sight, dreamy feel of Rebekah's first meeting with Isaac and I just knew it was "Happy Ever After".
As a baby Christian at the age of 19 this story had captured my fancy... God was gonna work it all out. I was a new creation... My life from this point on would be cloudless days, filled with rainbows and I would meet the "right" one, and we would be perfect together and we would be perfect parents and because we followed Jesus EVERYTHING would be PERFECT... Idealistic, but true nonetheless. Maybe it's youth that makes us dream such impossible dreams.
17 years later I read this story so differently... I bet Rebekah didn't expect things to turn out the way they do. I bet when she was swept up onto that camel, rescued from her father's house, and delivered straight into the arms of Mr. Right, she was thinking this is the beginning of the rest of my life. I bet she had a vision of perfection in mind.
Maybe it's my experience that makes me think she was SHOCKED with reality. Was she confused and upset with 20 years of barrenness. In a culture where children were highly prized and the most important reason for marriage I imagine that she was NOT expecting to have any trouble producing a child. THIS IS NOT WHAT SHE EXPECTED.
After her husband pleaded with the Lord (lesson 1... hardship draws us to the Lord), she became pregnant, but we know that this pregnancy didn't go the way she expected. Again we see a situation that draws her to the Lord. She goes to Him to find out what is going on.
Rebekah that young idealist is learning that the harsh realities of life make us draw near to a loving God.
I bet Rebekah didn't expect to behave so imperfectly... I know I didn't. She probably expected Mr. Right to always do and say the right thing. She probably expected Mr. and Mrs. Right to bear perfectly delightful children... but as the story goes this didn't happen. In fact the legacy of the patriarch's family is filled with people behaving badly. Not at all what you would expect to find in God's chosen family...
The problems in her family are enough to break any mom's heart. We could just inject in this story our own story, because I''m sure we can all relate. This is not at all what we expected. At one point Rebekah even tell Isaac that "I am weary of my life." Have you ever been there? Has life turned out less perfect than you thought it would?
What can I learn from Rebekah's life? ALOT. First and foremost the story is not about Mr. or Mrs. Right. The story is not about them at all. Mr. and Mrs. Right don't exist. The story is about the graciousness of a PERFECT God who chooses a regular family to bring forth His son so that we can be saved from our sins.
Secondly, I can see from Rebekah's life that LIFE IS NOT PERFECT. Life is HARD, life is painful, and life can make you weary. The weariness of life can be just the thing that draws us into a deeper relationship with God. Our faults, failures and weakness are the perfect backdrop to see God's AMAZING GRACE.
The failure of others (husbands and children) to meet our expectations of perfection can be just the thing that highlights our need for a relationship with a loving, perfect God, who will never leave us or forsake us.
Finally, this story is our story because life was never meant to be perfect. This place is not our home. The struggles of life serve as a constant reminder that Jesus is preparing a place for us. THAT place is the place of NO MORE tears, NO MORE dying, NO MORE pain. That place where God will be our God and HE will dwell with us is where our affection should be.
This life has moments of pure perfection... but they are fleeting. This life has joy, but NOTHING in this life can compare to what He has planned for those who love him.
This story has become for me a reminder that sometimes life is painful, BUT God is for me. It reminds me that I am NOT perfect and that's not why God chose me. My husband is not perfect, my children are not perfect. This story reminds me that in spite of all that God loves me and went to extraordinary lengths to show HIS great love for ordinary, messed up, always doing the wrong thing people!!! OH what Good news that is, because I could NEVER live up to the life I did expect.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
God in the Garden...
I recently started a small garden. I wanted to be able to save money and feed my family some good healthy veggies. I wanted to start from seed so I would know exactly what I was getting. I wanted to start from seed as a challenge. What I did not expect to experience so deeply and profoundly was a new sense of wonder for my God. I did not expect that starting a garden would make me fall more deeply in love with my Creator. I did not know that starting a garden would bring me closer to the God of the Universe.
We are a now generation... We want everything right now with little or no effort. We go to the grocery store and buy our produce completely disconnected from the process of where it came from and how it grew. Even when we plant gardens we go to Walmart, Home Depot or the local nursery and pick up plants that are already growing and transplant it in the ground. We see plants and trees all the time. Not very often do you stop and think about where they came from or stand and look at the amazing wonder of God's creation, but we should.
Starting anything from seed is the most amazing experience. To see something so small and unassuming bring forth life makes you really start to think. Seeing all the different seeds that I planted and then watching them sprout, little leaves coming through the dirt was such a high. Then as they began to grow it was amazing to watch them produce after their own kind. All the plants look completely different. I was fascinated by the differences and impressed with my ability to recognize which plants were what.
My plants are still very small and not producing fruit yet, but it's a joyful and relaxing experience to go out and look at them, water them, and meet with God in the garden and worship him for being so intelligent and creative. Tonight I went to my Dad's house. His garden is bigger and is producing veggies from planting much earlier than myself. We walked through the garden together as he showed me all of his onions, garlic, 4 different types of lettuce, broccoli, peppers, tomatoes and potatoes. The kids helped me pick lettuce and onions and garlic and in my Dad's garden I saw the hand of the God who gives abundantly. My Dad said they couldn't pick the lettuce fast enough. That brought me to a new place of worship.
This God who made us loves you and me so much that he provides for us abundantly even in this little garden. This amazing Creator who put the stars in motion and knows each one of their names gave us little seeds to plant and grow food and then produce more seed to do it again and again. We have lost so much of the intimacy with this God because we no longer grow our own food. We need to go back to walking in the garden with God in the cool of the day and experiencing his awesome nature. Seeing his provision in such an intimate way is beyond anything I have experienced so far. God reveals so much to us through his creation, but we no longer stop to gaze at his creation anymore. Our lives are full of other things, but He is there waiting for us to return to the garden and behold his Glory!!!
We are a now generation... We want everything right now with little or no effort. We go to the grocery store and buy our produce completely disconnected from the process of where it came from and how it grew. Even when we plant gardens we go to Walmart, Home Depot or the local nursery and pick up plants that are already growing and transplant it in the ground. We see plants and trees all the time. Not very often do you stop and think about where they came from or stand and look at the amazing wonder of God's creation, but we should.
Starting anything from seed is the most amazing experience. To see something so small and unassuming bring forth life makes you really start to think. Seeing all the different seeds that I planted and then watching them sprout, little leaves coming through the dirt was such a high. Then as they began to grow it was amazing to watch them produce after their own kind. All the plants look completely different. I was fascinated by the differences and impressed with my ability to recognize which plants were what.
My plants are still very small and not producing fruit yet, but it's a joyful and relaxing experience to go out and look at them, water them, and meet with God in the garden and worship him for being so intelligent and creative. Tonight I went to my Dad's house. His garden is bigger and is producing veggies from planting much earlier than myself. We walked through the garden together as he showed me all of his onions, garlic, 4 different types of lettuce, broccoli, peppers, tomatoes and potatoes. The kids helped me pick lettuce and onions and garlic and in my Dad's garden I saw the hand of the God who gives abundantly. My Dad said they couldn't pick the lettuce fast enough. That brought me to a new place of worship.
This God who made us loves you and me so much that he provides for us abundantly even in this little garden. This amazing Creator who put the stars in motion and knows each one of their names gave us little seeds to plant and grow food and then produce more seed to do it again and again. We have lost so much of the intimacy with this God because we no longer grow our own food. We need to go back to walking in the garden with God in the cool of the day and experiencing his awesome nature. Seeing his provision in such an intimate way is beyond anything I have experienced so far. God reveals so much to us through his creation, but we no longer stop to gaze at his creation anymore. Our lives are full of other things, but He is there waiting for us to return to the garden and behold his Glory!!!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Good Grief...
One minute I'm tying my babies shoes getting them ready to go to the grandparents and the next I'm overcome by sadness and tears. Normally this would be a very joyous moment for me (a few hours with the husband by ourselves), but here I am crying my eyes out. What in the world just happened. GRIEF...
My mom passed away two months ago. I kinda of know what to expect from grief because right after she died I had no feelings at all, so I looked up the stages of grief and there I was right there at the beginning in shock. A state that I would describe more as numb, emotionless. At the funeral I was even happy, not that she had left us, but we are followers of Christ so for us death is the beginning of a new life with Christ... without sickness, pain, and suffering. I could rationalize everything through that knowledge. That's not the end of grief though... Grief is a process that takes time. Grief is something you have to experience to bring healing.
I don't know all the stages it's been awhile and I'm not an expert, but I remember that there is denial, anger, and at some point acceptance... In there somewhere and at the most random times are episodes of the most intense pain and longing that I have ever felt. Breakdowns to say the least. Times when you just have to feel... you can't rationalize the pain away... you just have to feel it. As humans this is where a problem can really occur though... we are a society who does not like to FEEL pain. We run from it to drugs, alcohol, food, and many other things to escape the pain. Then we have a bigger problem.
So, yesterday I just let the wave of grief wash over me and beat against my soul. I made a conscious decision to feel the pain for the first time fully and completely. I decided to not be ashamed of what other people saw or that they might be uncomfortable. I was thankful that my children were leaving and I accepted the comfort and support of my husband. I took his hand and hug when it was offered. I didn't brush off the comfort, but I really accepted it. Then I called my brother on the phone, and talked to the one person who could relate completely with what I was going through. He was having a good day, but he had just recently had a day like this, and he knew exactly what I was feeling and thinking... Then I talked to a friend and shared my heart with her.
I decided that it's okay to have those moments and I had one. I decided that I miss her like CRAZY and I want her back and that that's ok too. I decided that I didn't know what other people were going through and I thought that "Time healed all things", but that's a LIE. I've heard people who have lost parents and children say you never get over it, you eventually accept a NEW NORMAL.
So, I'm on this journey... and I pray that the Lord will help me deal with this Grief in a good way!!!
My mom passed away two months ago. I kinda of know what to expect from grief because right after she died I had no feelings at all, so I looked up the stages of grief and there I was right there at the beginning in shock. A state that I would describe more as numb, emotionless. At the funeral I was even happy, not that she had left us, but we are followers of Christ so for us death is the beginning of a new life with Christ... without sickness, pain, and suffering. I could rationalize everything through that knowledge. That's not the end of grief though... Grief is a process that takes time. Grief is something you have to experience to bring healing.
I don't know all the stages it's been awhile and I'm not an expert, but I remember that there is denial, anger, and at some point acceptance... In there somewhere and at the most random times are episodes of the most intense pain and longing that I have ever felt. Breakdowns to say the least. Times when you just have to feel... you can't rationalize the pain away... you just have to feel it. As humans this is where a problem can really occur though... we are a society who does not like to FEEL pain. We run from it to drugs, alcohol, food, and many other things to escape the pain. Then we have a bigger problem.
So, yesterday I just let the wave of grief wash over me and beat against my soul. I made a conscious decision to feel the pain for the first time fully and completely. I decided to not be ashamed of what other people saw or that they might be uncomfortable. I was thankful that my children were leaving and I accepted the comfort and support of my husband. I took his hand and hug when it was offered. I didn't brush off the comfort, but I really accepted it. Then I called my brother on the phone, and talked to the one person who could relate completely with what I was going through. He was having a good day, but he had just recently had a day like this, and he knew exactly what I was feeling and thinking... Then I talked to a friend and shared my heart with her.
I decided that it's okay to have those moments and I had one. I decided that I miss her like CRAZY and I want her back and that that's ok too. I decided that I didn't know what other people were going through and I thought that "Time healed all things", but that's a LIE. I've heard people who have lost parents and children say you never get over it, you eventually accept a NEW NORMAL.
So, I'm on this journey... and I pray that the Lord will help me deal with this Grief in a good way!!!
Thursday, April 12, 2012
On my mind today...
It's been a while since I've posted anything. I go through times like that. Not that I don't have something to say (anyone who knows me knows I ALWAYS have something to say). It's just been busy around here and I haven't felt inspired to share. Most the time this blog is really just a journal for my random thoughts and today that is definitely the truth. I have thoughts floating around in my head that I want to get out... I guess for me it's therapeutic! So here it goes... the things that I'm thinking about today.
1. I got up this morning and the first thing I always do is go to the fridge to get a glass of water. When my mom passed away I put a collage of pictures up so I could see her face all the time. This morning I looked at those pictures and I was filled with longing to see that smile in person, to feel her arms around me, to see that knowing look on her face. There once was a time when I thought "Lord, let me live a good long life before you take me to heaven", but I don't think that anymore. There are some faces there that I long to see... hers being the main one. I miss her today.
2. For Christmas we bought our kids 2 puppies. They are adorable, but they are a lot of work. So, I began to pray for the Lord to deliver me from this extra burden. I prayed for a good family that didn't have as much going on so the pups would get the attention they deserve. Someone who NEEDED them. One of the pups is very active and needed a lot of attention... With 4 kids and homeschooling this wasn't gonna happen around here. So, one day last week I posted them on Craigslist. I got an email from a lady who loved Jack (the hyper ones) face and she wanted to come see him. When she got here we talked and she was looking for a pup who wanted to love and cuddle and needed attention. She wasn't working right now and she has a 9yr old son. A perfect description of my prayer. We were able to keep the other pup because he is more like a cat in that he wants to be left alone most the time. He has the cutest face and a sweet personality. He also has been training very well which has made it alot more peaceful for me. I feel like a huge burden has been lifted. I know it's a really small thing, and that there are a lot bigger prayer request than that. I'm just thankful for a God who listens to our little and big prayers... I'm thankful for a God who cares about a stressed out mom of 4 who doesn't have time to worry about another thing. This morning Jack's new owner emailed me with an update and a picture. He's doing great and he's a perfect fit for their family. What a relief.
3. We have gone to church in another town for years... It was about a 30min drive. Not that that matters if that's where God wants you to be, but a while ago God began to move in our hearts to get closer to home. Join a local church and really get involved in our community. When people in our neighborhood asked where we went to church when they found out it was 30min away that would be the end of the conversation. We started to see that this was a big deal. So, we prayed and God finally gave us clearance and direction. It's funny to me that I personally have made a full circle. God led us back to the church where I gave my life to Christ. The church that I have always felt was home. My husband had never gone there, but this is where I was "born and raised" in the faith. The awesome thing is IT STILL FEELS LIKE HOME!!! I'm excited about what God is doing here and what He is going to do in our community.
4. I read a book about 6 months ago called Large Family Logistics. Written by a Home-schooling mom of 9, it is filled with good advice and practical tips to help your large family (or any family) run smoothly. For a while I put the tips in practice and it worked and life was less stressful, but as humans do I started slipping until eventually things around here got out of control with no order, schedule, or routine. Chaos ensued and I have been stressed. Thanks be to God that he reminded me of those things that worked AFTER I called out to him. So, I have gotten back to things like: getting up early, staying home, sticking to a schedule, cleaning up kitchen immediately after each meal... One of the key things for me is having the kitchen cleaned at night so when I get up in the morning I don't already feel like I'm running behind. There are a few other things that make a huge difference for me... One is eating right, drinking water, and taking vitamins when I do these things I don't feel tired and overwhelmed. Another thing is I have been praying for wisdom with discipline. He began to show me that I am a reactor... I am not a trainer. So, I have to learn to TRAIN my children in the way they should go. I cannot expect my children to make right decisions if they have never been trained to do that. A very big part of training my children is being at home and concentrating on behavior. The last thing that helps me so much is scheduling my life (which is not my strong point), but it's necessary for our success!!!
Well, thanks for stopping by to find out what is on my mind. Let me know if you relate or have any good tips. Hope you have a great day!!!
1. I got up this morning and the first thing I always do is go to the fridge to get a glass of water. When my mom passed away I put a collage of pictures up so I could see her face all the time. This morning I looked at those pictures and I was filled with longing to see that smile in person, to feel her arms around me, to see that knowing look on her face. There once was a time when I thought "Lord, let me live a good long life before you take me to heaven", but I don't think that anymore. There are some faces there that I long to see... hers being the main one. I miss her today.
2. For Christmas we bought our kids 2 puppies. They are adorable, but they are a lot of work. So, I began to pray for the Lord to deliver me from this extra burden. I prayed for a good family that didn't have as much going on so the pups would get the attention they deserve. Someone who NEEDED them. One of the pups is very active and needed a lot of attention... With 4 kids and homeschooling this wasn't gonna happen around here. So, one day last week I posted them on Craigslist. I got an email from a lady who loved Jack (the hyper ones) face and she wanted to come see him. When she got here we talked and she was looking for a pup who wanted to love and cuddle and needed attention. She wasn't working right now and she has a 9yr old son. A perfect description of my prayer. We were able to keep the other pup because he is more like a cat in that he wants to be left alone most the time. He has the cutest face and a sweet personality. He also has been training very well which has made it alot more peaceful for me. I feel like a huge burden has been lifted. I know it's a really small thing, and that there are a lot bigger prayer request than that. I'm just thankful for a God who listens to our little and big prayers... I'm thankful for a God who cares about a stressed out mom of 4 who doesn't have time to worry about another thing. This morning Jack's new owner emailed me with an update and a picture. He's doing great and he's a perfect fit for their family. What a relief.
3. We have gone to church in another town for years... It was about a 30min drive. Not that that matters if that's where God wants you to be, but a while ago God began to move in our hearts to get closer to home. Join a local church and really get involved in our community. When people in our neighborhood asked where we went to church when they found out it was 30min away that would be the end of the conversation. We started to see that this was a big deal. So, we prayed and God finally gave us clearance and direction. It's funny to me that I personally have made a full circle. God led us back to the church where I gave my life to Christ. The church that I have always felt was home. My husband had never gone there, but this is where I was "born and raised" in the faith. The awesome thing is IT STILL FEELS LIKE HOME!!! I'm excited about what God is doing here and what He is going to do in our community.
4. I read a book about 6 months ago called Large Family Logistics. Written by a Home-schooling mom of 9, it is filled with good advice and practical tips to help your large family (or any family) run smoothly. For a while I put the tips in practice and it worked and life was less stressful, but as humans do I started slipping until eventually things around here got out of control with no order, schedule, or routine. Chaos ensued and I have been stressed. Thanks be to God that he reminded me of those things that worked AFTER I called out to him. So, I have gotten back to things like: getting up early, staying home, sticking to a schedule, cleaning up kitchen immediately after each meal... One of the key things for me is having the kitchen cleaned at night so when I get up in the morning I don't already feel like I'm running behind. There are a few other things that make a huge difference for me... One is eating right, drinking water, and taking vitamins when I do these things I don't feel tired and overwhelmed. Another thing is I have been praying for wisdom with discipline. He began to show me that I am a reactor... I am not a trainer. So, I have to learn to TRAIN my children in the way they should go. I cannot expect my children to make right decisions if they have never been trained to do that. A very big part of training my children is being at home and concentrating on behavior. The last thing that helps me so much is scheduling my life (which is not my strong point), but it's necessary for our success!!!
Well, thanks for stopping by to find out what is on my mind. Let me know if you relate or have any good tips. Hope you have a great day!!!
Monday, February 27, 2012
The Real Me...
The Real Me is the one I try real hard to not let anyone see, but if you want to meet the real me, come over to my house and watch my children for a day...
My children are a reflection of the real me that I hide from the rest of the world. My children who are born with a sin nature and a rebellious heart are a mirror image of what's in my heart. Caleb with his anger. Jordan with her sass. Isaiah with his complaints. Andrew with his temper tantrums. All of them with their impatience and selfishness. I get so frustrated when I see all of these things in them, until God reminds me, that's a picture of the real me.
The real me is lazy like my kids who don't want to clean their rooms. The real me is impatient and unkind with anyone who impresses on my time or gets in my space. The real me doesn't want to eat my veggies, I want sugar instead. The real me is angry that things don't always go my way. The real me would rather watch stuff I shouldn't than spend time in God's word. The real me is tempted by everything. The real me is jealous. The real me is mean. The real me is out for #1.
This morning when I was making breakfast my two middle sons complained the whole time about what I was making. They don't want to eat healthier. They like cereal and pancakes covered in syrup, who doesn't. Oh me I would rather make that stuff, it's yummy and then I wouldn't have to fight with them. Instead I continue to make the healthy food that no one wants, because it's better for them, even if they don't care. As I cook I grow angrier and angrier at my children for being so hard to deal with, AND THEN... The Lord places the scene of the children of Israel in my minds eye. Complaining about EVERYTHING. Disobedient at every turn. Rebellious and Hardheaded. Problem is he wasn't showing me that because of my ungrateful children, he was showing me how he has to deal with the same thing from all of his children (including ME). Then He so graciously pointed out that my children are a reflection of the real me. The one that they get to see. The one who is not perfect inside the walls of this house. The one who complains all the time. The one who loses her temper all the time. The one who would rather go back to Egypt then follow God in this wilderness.
Oh yes, I can fool myself at times, but I have no goodness apart from Christ. The fruit of the Spirit in my life... love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control ONLY COME FROM HIS SPIRIT. The real me as at war with the Spirit in me all the time. Galatians 5:24-25 tells us "and they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit." Crucify the Flesh... That's what I have to do on a daily basis, because when I became a follower of Christ I didn't become perfect. Everyday I have to die to MY, MY, MY affections and lusts... Do you see that? MY affections and lusts... I still have them, I just have to KILL THEM and live in the Spirit. My children haven't learned to do that yet, so when you see them misbehave just know they are a reflection of me.
My children are a reflection of the real me that I hide from the rest of the world. My children who are born with a sin nature and a rebellious heart are a mirror image of what's in my heart. Caleb with his anger. Jordan with her sass. Isaiah with his complaints. Andrew with his temper tantrums. All of them with their impatience and selfishness. I get so frustrated when I see all of these things in them, until God reminds me, that's a picture of the real me.
The real me is lazy like my kids who don't want to clean their rooms. The real me is impatient and unkind with anyone who impresses on my time or gets in my space. The real me doesn't want to eat my veggies, I want sugar instead. The real me is angry that things don't always go my way. The real me would rather watch stuff I shouldn't than spend time in God's word. The real me is tempted by everything. The real me is jealous. The real me is mean. The real me is out for #1.
This morning when I was making breakfast my two middle sons complained the whole time about what I was making. They don't want to eat healthier. They like cereal and pancakes covered in syrup, who doesn't. Oh me I would rather make that stuff, it's yummy and then I wouldn't have to fight with them. Instead I continue to make the healthy food that no one wants, because it's better for them, even if they don't care. As I cook I grow angrier and angrier at my children for being so hard to deal with, AND THEN... The Lord places the scene of the children of Israel in my minds eye. Complaining about EVERYTHING. Disobedient at every turn. Rebellious and Hardheaded. Problem is he wasn't showing me that because of my ungrateful children, he was showing me how he has to deal with the same thing from all of his children (including ME). Then He so graciously pointed out that my children are a reflection of the real me. The one that they get to see. The one who is not perfect inside the walls of this house. The one who complains all the time. The one who loses her temper all the time. The one who would rather go back to Egypt then follow God in this wilderness.
Oh yes, I can fool myself at times, but I have no goodness apart from Christ. The fruit of the Spirit in my life... love, joy, peace, patience, gentleness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control ONLY COME FROM HIS SPIRIT. The real me as at war with the Spirit in me all the time. Galatians 5:24-25 tells us "and they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit." Crucify the Flesh... That's what I have to do on a daily basis, because when I became a follower of Christ I didn't become perfect. Everyday I have to die to MY, MY, MY affections and lusts... Do you see that? MY affections and lusts... I still have them, I just have to KILL THEM and live in the Spirit. My children haven't learned to do that yet, so when you see them misbehave just know they are a reflection of me.
Friday, February 24, 2012
For our Health's sake...
Health is a big deal... When you don't feed your body right it doesn't work right... I should know I haven't fed my right in a long time. When I was pregnant with my firstborn I came across a book called "What the Bible Says About Healthy Living". It was full of wonderful information that I had never heard before. I couldn't put it down. Reading this book made me realize for maybe the first time how fearfully and wonderfully we are made. I saw that the Old Testament laws were designed to bring God's people amazing health.
Growing up I NEVER heard anything about good food for good health. I heard eat your veggies, but never knew why. So, who cares if you eat your veggies. We ate out alot...enough said. Anyhoo, read the book and decided to listen and obey. Not that I was a perfect picture of health. I have ALWAYS hated any form of excercise, except walking, and I don't do that enough. But, I did become more concious of what I was feeding myself and the new life inside me.
All that went out the door when I found myself pregnant for the 3rd time in 5 years. I was TIRED. I didn't care what I ate. Snickers and Diet Coke became my best friends. I ate terribly and so did my children. We started eating out more and when I did cook it was cheap and easy. Breakfast was cold cereal 4 times a week. Lunch at a fastfood place 2 days and junk the rest. My babies have always loved fruit and I try to have plenty around, but goldfish is a quicker, easier snack. The most frequent veggie they have seen in their lives is canned corn and green beans. Ooooh Healthy!
Like I said in previous post my mom's recent battle with cancer has motivated me to seek better health for my family again. We have also have a 3yr old that is VERY high energy. I know his diet has to be a major factor in that. So, we're making some changes around here. This is my list of 5 things I have committed to do to improve my families health:
1. Drink more water... My favorite thing to drink and the only beverage I truly enjoy is Diet Coke, can we say NOT HEALTHY!!! Between DC and sweet (I mean SWEET) Tea, there's not much room for water. Likewise my children drink from my ST glass all day and when they have a glass of their own it's got some form of sugary drink in it. SO, for health's sake we're switching it up. We have a new rule now... MOSTLY WATER!
2. More Protein... High energy does not need lots of sugar. DUH. But, that is what our snacks have been before. Thankfully my 3yr old LOVES almonds and string cheese. So, that's the new snack of choice. I've already seen a huge improvement. I changed our normally sugar filled yogurt to plain yogurt with added fruit. IF you have any suggestions on the protein let me know...
3. More Fiber... We're adding more fruits and veggies and I got some flax seed to grind up and I'm putting that in our smoothies. You know what fiber does... Everybody could use a clean out.
4. Juicing... I have had a juicer for a long time, but after a week or so I got tired of all the WORK it takes to get it out, use it, take it apart, clean it, and put it away again. BUT, I have now decided it's worth it for our health's sake. The ONLY way I can get my littles to eat the green stuff they don't dig is JUICE IT. They love watching me juice the veggies and since it's a fun experience they like to drink the juice up. I'm freezing the pulp and putting it in spegetti and meat loaf and whatever else I can think of.
5. Vitamins... I've always been a big fan of Vities as my littles call them, but I've NEVER been good at taking them on a regular basis. Vitamins always make a big difference in how I feel and my energy level, so I have to be more diligent to take my vities...
These are just a few things that I can do to improve our health, but you have to start somewhere. I find for myself it's better to add a new habit to one you have already established. So, this is where I'm starting, but if my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit it's time to stop abusing it. If I am in charge of the health and welfare of my family I better start doing a better job. Laziness is no longer an excuse. If I take better care of me then I will FEEL better... God has given us an astonishing miracle in these bodies that He made. Bodies able to detox and fight off all manner of illnesses and disease, but we have to give our bodies what they need. I'm starting today!!!
What about you? Do you have any suggestions or anything that you are doing FOR YOUR HEALTH'S SAKE???
Growing up I NEVER heard anything about good food for good health. I heard eat your veggies, but never knew why. So, who cares if you eat your veggies. We ate out alot...enough said. Anyhoo, read the book and decided to listen and obey. Not that I was a perfect picture of health. I have ALWAYS hated any form of excercise, except walking, and I don't do that enough. But, I did become more concious of what I was feeding myself and the new life inside me.
All that went out the door when I found myself pregnant for the 3rd time in 5 years. I was TIRED. I didn't care what I ate. Snickers and Diet Coke became my best friends. I ate terribly and so did my children. We started eating out more and when I did cook it was cheap and easy. Breakfast was cold cereal 4 times a week. Lunch at a fastfood place 2 days and junk the rest. My babies have always loved fruit and I try to have plenty around, but goldfish is a quicker, easier snack. The most frequent veggie they have seen in their lives is canned corn and green beans. Ooooh Healthy!
Like I said in previous post my mom's recent battle with cancer has motivated me to seek better health for my family again. We have also have a 3yr old that is VERY high energy. I know his diet has to be a major factor in that. So, we're making some changes around here. This is my list of 5 things I have committed to do to improve my families health:
1. Drink more water... My favorite thing to drink and the only beverage I truly enjoy is Diet Coke, can we say NOT HEALTHY!!! Between DC and sweet (I mean SWEET) Tea, there's not much room for water. Likewise my children drink from my ST glass all day and when they have a glass of their own it's got some form of sugary drink in it. SO, for health's sake we're switching it up. We have a new rule now... MOSTLY WATER!
2. More Protein... High energy does not need lots of sugar. DUH. But, that is what our snacks have been before. Thankfully my 3yr old LOVES almonds and string cheese. So, that's the new snack of choice. I've already seen a huge improvement. I changed our normally sugar filled yogurt to plain yogurt with added fruit. IF you have any suggestions on the protein let me know...
3. More Fiber... We're adding more fruits and veggies and I got some flax seed to grind up and I'm putting that in our smoothies. You know what fiber does... Everybody could use a clean out.
4. Juicing... I have had a juicer for a long time, but after a week or so I got tired of all the WORK it takes to get it out, use it, take it apart, clean it, and put it away again. BUT, I have now decided it's worth it for our health's sake. The ONLY way I can get my littles to eat the green stuff they don't dig is JUICE IT. They love watching me juice the veggies and since it's a fun experience they like to drink the juice up. I'm freezing the pulp and putting it in spegetti and meat loaf and whatever else I can think of.
5. Vitamins... I've always been a big fan of Vities as my littles call them, but I've NEVER been good at taking them on a regular basis. Vitamins always make a big difference in how I feel and my energy level, so I have to be more diligent to take my vities...
These are just a few things that I can do to improve our health, but you have to start somewhere. I find for myself it's better to add a new habit to one you have already established. So, this is where I'm starting, but if my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit it's time to stop abusing it. If I am in charge of the health and welfare of my family I better start doing a better job. Laziness is no longer an excuse. If I take better care of me then I will FEEL better... God has given us an astonishing miracle in these bodies that He made. Bodies able to detox and fight off all manner of illnesses and disease, but we have to give our bodies what they need. I'm starting today!!!
What about you? Do you have any suggestions or anything that you are doing FOR YOUR HEALTH'S SAKE???
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Fear and Dread...
One of the major things that has been on my mind since my Mom passed is HEALTH. No wonder since she died from Cancer which some would say is a curable disease, that is without chemo/radiation. I have been convicted like never before to be a diligent guardian over my families health. That should be pretty easy... no more McDonald's chicken nuggets. More fruits and veggies, less junk. The problem that is not in my control is all of the man-made toxins that are being forced on us all the time. Since this is out of my control I can easily become overwhelmed with FEAR AND DREAD. What if... thoughts begin to plague me. I don't know about you, but when I feel like my family is in danger, and I can't do anything about it I begin to feel like a caged animal...
How can you "rejoice in the Lord", or "think on things that are true and lovely" if your mind is plagued by unseen fears? One thing I KNOW to do is pray. When my spirit is heavy burdened I know where to go. So, today as I was praying and crying out to the Lord I told him what I was thinking and feeling. I told him that I felt down and not joyful. I told him I was fearful and overwhelmed.
Sometimes answers to pray take time, not today. His immediate reply Psalms 34:4
"I sought the Lord, and he HEARD me, and delivered me from all my fears."
The awesome thing is that Psalms 34 tells that He hears our prayers and delivers us from fear, when you continue to read it (which I hope you will), He tells us the remedy for fear...
vs 8 "O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed (happy and at peace) is the man that trusts in HIM.
"O fear the Lord, ye his saints: for there is NO LACK to them that fear HIM."
The answer to fear of man is to Fear the Lord. The Bible tells us that GOD IS GOOD so we can trust in HIM and not fear man. When I place my trust in a Good God what do I have to fear. As FDR said "We have nothing to fear, except fear itself." The Lord knows that there can be no end to fear in our lives. In the Old testament one of the most common phrases that God says to his people is "do not be afraid". 2 Timothy 1:7 says "For God has NOT given us a spirit of fear: but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." Proverbs 17:22 tells us "A merry heart does good like medicine..." If that is true does the bible tell us that a merry heart can detox our body??? Is the key to good health a sound mind and a merry heart that rejoices in the Lord (phil 4)?
There's alot of speculation out there that the mind has a big impact on the body. Some would say that your thoughts can make you body sick. If that's the case I have to be diligent to guard my mind and my thoughts. I'm thankful that when I fall in the enemies trap of fear that I can run to the Lord in prayer and find answers in the Word of life. Psalms tells us that "HE sent HIS WORD and it healed them of all of their diseases... WOW... Think about Jesus going around and healing all those different diseases. Think of God's word as a healing balm... If we follow after the ways of the Lord HE makes us another promise:
"If you listen carefully to the voice of the Lord your God and do what is right in his eyes, IF you pay attention to his commands and keep all his decrees, I will not bring on you any of the diseases I brought on the Egyptians, FOR I AM THE LORD, WHO HEALS YOU (Exodus 15:26)
I am thankful to the Father for giving us His Son. I am thankful to the Father for giving us His word. I am thankful for the promises of God that are able to remove our fear and dread.
How can you "rejoice in the Lord", or "think on things that are true and lovely" if your mind is plagued by unseen fears? One thing I KNOW to do is pray. When my spirit is heavy burdened I know where to go. So, today as I was praying and crying out to the Lord I told him what I was thinking and feeling. I told him that I felt down and not joyful. I told him I was fearful and overwhelmed.
Sometimes answers to pray take time, not today. His immediate reply Psalms 34:4
"I sought the Lord, and he HEARD me, and delivered me from all my fears."
The awesome thing is that Psalms 34 tells that He hears our prayers and delivers us from fear, when you continue to read it (which I hope you will), He tells us the remedy for fear...
vs 8 "O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed (happy and at peace) is the man that trusts in HIM.
"O fear the Lord, ye his saints: for there is NO LACK to them that fear HIM."
The answer to fear of man is to Fear the Lord. The Bible tells us that GOD IS GOOD so we can trust in HIM and not fear man. When I place my trust in a Good God what do I have to fear. As FDR said "We have nothing to fear, except fear itself." The Lord knows that there can be no end to fear in our lives. In the Old testament one of the most common phrases that God says to his people is "do not be afraid". 2 Timothy 1:7 says "For God has NOT given us a spirit of fear: but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." Proverbs 17:22 tells us "A merry heart does good like medicine..." If that is true does the bible tell us that a merry heart can detox our body??? Is the key to good health a sound mind and a merry heart that rejoices in the Lord (phil 4)?
There's alot of speculation out there that the mind has a big impact on the body. Some would say that your thoughts can make you body sick. If that's the case I have to be diligent to guard my mind and my thoughts. I'm thankful that when I fall in the enemies trap of fear that I can run to the Lord in prayer and find answers in the Word of life. Psalms tells us that "HE sent HIS WORD and it healed them of all of their diseases... WOW... Think about Jesus going around and healing all those different diseases. Think of God's word as a healing balm... If we follow after the ways of the Lord HE makes us another promise:
"If you listen carefully to the voice of the Lord your God and do what is right in his eyes, IF you pay attention to his commands and keep all his decrees, I will not bring on you any of the diseases I brought on the Egyptians, FOR I AM THE LORD, WHO HEALS YOU (Exodus 15:26)
I am thankful to the Father for giving us His Son. I am thankful to the Father for giving us His word. I am thankful for the promises of God that are able to remove our fear and dread.
Friday, February 17, 2012
A God of His Word...
It's amazing how many things a person can fear... Worry and dread steal our joy and often cause us to panic over the future. I have recently been through one of those times that I ALWAYS dreaded... The death of a parent. In the past I have questioned how I would handle if one of my parents passed from this life to the next?! Fear of the future can rob us of the peace of the present.
As most of you know my mom has been very ill. She went home to be with the Lord on the 13th of February. My mom had cancer... I know it's a dirty word. I hate it too. But, the funny thing about this horrible word cancer is that it gives (us) the living TIME... Time to process the horrible prospect of a future without our loved one. It gives us time to say the things we need to say. It gives us perspective on what is TRULY important, like spending every minute you can with the one you will soon lose. I am personally thankful for this TIME. I am thankful for what this ugly cancer did to change us all and draw us closer to each other and closer to our Saviour. I am thankful for the gift of spending the last 12 hours of my mother's life holding her hand and singing to her, reading beloved scripture that has now taken on new life...
When we knew that my Mom was not going to get better I cried bitter tears. IT HURTS to lose someone you love. I cried for her. I cried for me. I thought of all the things we wouldn't get to do. I said things to myself like she is too young at 52 to leave us like this. I said things like what will I do without her. I screamed and I yelled in my spirit. I didn't want to give her up. SHE IS MINE... I told the Lord. The thing is SHE IS NOT MINE. She is HIS. My mom was only on loan to me for a while. So now I need to cherish those that are loaned to me FOR NOW.
There are a few things that I have learned along the way... Life is short. Life is precious. Life is fragile. We are not promised tomorrow. The people we love are only on loan for a while. We must be prepared to release them when it is time. The ONLY person we will ALWAYS have is JESUS. HE is the only one who can keep his promise that HE will NEVER leave us or forsake us. HE IS ENOUGH.
And Finally I learned that our God is a God of his word. He will give you peace that doesn't even make sense. He will walk with you and carry you when you are not able to stand. He will heal your heart if you let him. I know this is just the beginning of my journey, but my God has been so faithful this far that I am not afraid of tomorrow. No matter what happens in this life He will walk with me. I will see those I love again. Heaven is my home with my God and anyone who chooses to accept His invitation.
There is no need to fear the future... Don't worry about what you would do if you were in someone else's situation. The Bible says in 2 Corinthians 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you: for my strength is made perfect in weakness." He's gonna give you the grace you need. He's gonna give you the strength you need. Philippians 4:7 "And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." He's gonna give you peace...
There are so many promises in God's word that bring the child of God comfort. Read it. Read about Heaven... How could I want her back when she is in that GLORIOUS place. I'm going there too, so why would I want her back when I'm gonna see her soon???
Thank you Father for keeping your promises. You are an AWESOME GOD. You are my everything. What more could I want than you?!
As most of you know my mom has been very ill. She went home to be with the Lord on the 13th of February. My mom had cancer... I know it's a dirty word. I hate it too. But, the funny thing about this horrible word cancer is that it gives (us) the living TIME... Time to process the horrible prospect of a future without our loved one. It gives us time to say the things we need to say. It gives us perspective on what is TRULY important, like spending every minute you can with the one you will soon lose. I am personally thankful for this TIME. I am thankful for what this ugly cancer did to change us all and draw us closer to each other and closer to our Saviour. I am thankful for the gift of spending the last 12 hours of my mother's life holding her hand and singing to her, reading beloved scripture that has now taken on new life...
When we knew that my Mom was not going to get better I cried bitter tears. IT HURTS to lose someone you love. I cried for her. I cried for me. I thought of all the things we wouldn't get to do. I said things to myself like she is too young at 52 to leave us like this. I said things like what will I do without her. I screamed and I yelled in my spirit. I didn't want to give her up. SHE IS MINE... I told the Lord. The thing is SHE IS NOT MINE. She is HIS. My mom was only on loan to me for a while. So now I need to cherish those that are loaned to me FOR NOW.
There are a few things that I have learned along the way... Life is short. Life is precious. Life is fragile. We are not promised tomorrow. The people we love are only on loan for a while. We must be prepared to release them when it is time. The ONLY person we will ALWAYS have is JESUS. HE is the only one who can keep his promise that HE will NEVER leave us or forsake us. HE IS ENOUGH.
And Finally I learned that our God is a God of his word. He will give you peace that doesn't even make sense. He will walk with you and carry you when you are not able to stand. He will heal your heart if you let him. I know this is just the beginning of my journey, but my God has been so faithful this far that I am not afraid of tomorrow. No matter what happens in this life He will walk with me. I will see those I love again. Heaven is my home with my God and anyone who chooses to accept His invitation.
There is no need to fear the future... Don't worry about what you would do if you were in someone else's situation. The Bible says in 2 Corinthians 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you: for my strength is made perfect in weakness." He's gonna give you the grace you need. He's gonna give you the strength you need. Philippians 4:7 "And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." He's gonna give you peace...
There are so many promises in God's word that bring the child of God comfort. Read it. Read about Heaven... How could I want her back when she is in that GLORIOUS place. I'm going there too, so why would I want her back when I'm gonna see her soon???
Thank you Father for keeping your promises. You are an AWESOME GOD. You are my everything. What more could I want than you?!
Thursday, February 9, 2012
This ain't a wonderful world....
So, I'm glad it's not my home.
But here is a picture of where I will retire someday:
"I saw a NEW heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea.
And I John saw the holy city, NEW Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride for her husband.
And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, BEHOLD, the tabernacle (dwelling place) of God IS WITH men, and HE will dwell with them, they shall be his people, and God himself shall be with them, and be their God.
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be NO MORE death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be ANY MORE pain: for the former things are passed away.
And He that sat upon the throne said, BEHOLD, I MAKE ALL THINGS NEW. And HE said to me, Write: FOR THESE WORDS ARE TRUE AND FAITHFUL.
And He said unto me, IT IS DONE. I AM the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I WILL give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the WATER OF LIFE freely.
He that overcometh shall inherit ALL things; and I WILL BE HIS GOD, and he shall be my son."
It's obvious from this passage that Jesus knew that we would have sorrow, and pain, and suffering. I don't know what you are going through today, but God knows. I don't know your pain, but I know mine and I am comforted every time I read these words. Jesus knew this life was full of suffering. Paul said to be a part of Christ you must share in His suffering. Suffering is the best tool that God can use or allow in our lives to conform us to the image of His son, BUT GOD said that is not the end. THERE IS JOY IN THE MORNING. There is beauty in the ashes. There is a beautiful vessel that comes out of the Refiners fire and when that vessel is purified there is a place waiting that exceeds our imagination.
Father, I praise your holy name. You are my strength, my comfort, my banner. When I dwell on your word and your promises I can see this place is not worth holding on to. My home is with you. I can let go of the ones that you want to take there, because it's better there. I can rest and have peace. You are faithful and true and if you said it that's all I need. Thank you for preparing a place for one who is so unworthy... I can only Imagine!!!
But here is a picture of where I will retire someday:
"I saw a NEW heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea.
And I John saw the holy city, NEW Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride for her husband.
And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, BEHOLD, the tabernacle (dwelling place) of God IS WITH men, and HE will dwell with them, they shall be his people, and God himself shall be with them, and be their God.
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be NO MORE death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be ANY MORE pain: for the former things are passed away.
And He that sat upon the throne said, BEHOLD, I MAKE ALL THINGS NEW. And HE said to me, Write: FOR THESE WORDS ARE TRUE AND FAITHFUL.
And He said unto me, IT IS DONE. I AM the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I WILL give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the WATER OF LIFE freely.
He that overcometh shall inherit ALL things; and I WILL BE HIS GOD, and he shall be my son."
It's obvious from this passage that Jesus knew that we would have sorrow, and pain, and suffering. I don't know what you are going through today, but God knows. I don't know your pain, but I know mine and I am comforted every time I read these words. Jesus knew this life was full of suffering. Paul said to be a part of Christ you must share in His suffering. Suffering is the best tool that God can use or allow in our lives to conform us to the image of His son, BUT GOD said that is not the end. THERE IS JOY IN THE MORNING. There is beauty in the ashes. There is a beautiful vessel that comes out of the Refiners fire and when that vessel is purified there is a place waiting that exceeds our imagination.
Father, I praise your holy name. You are my strength, my comfort, my banner. When I dwell on your word and your promises I can see this place is not worth holding on to. My home is with you. I can let go of the ones that you want to take there, because it's better there. I can rest and have peace. You are faithful and true and if you said it that's all I need. Thank you for preparing a place for one who is so unworthy... I can only Imagine!!!
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Girlfriend let me tell you something...
Lately I've been thinking about my "girl friends". So, I had to bring my thoughts to the computer!!!
First of all, growing up I didn't have good relationships with girls... I don't know if that is just natural or if it was me. I had a bestie in middle school and I was happy, she was all I needed. I went to a new school in high school and again I had one really close female friendship. I was just one of those girls that HATED drama and liked hang'n with the boys more!!! I knew that something was missing though. I wanted to connect with other girls and just be me... I wondered if that would ever really be possible...
I mean if you watch any TV besides HGTV and Food network, you know we have an issue these days of females being VICIOUS!!! Hateful, conniving, man-stealing, self-worshipping FEMALES!!! Turn on the TV for 5 minutes and you will see that the more nurturing sex is not so nurturing these days!!! I could REALLY go off on a tangit now, but I'll try to stay on track with what I'm saying!!! Have a 2 minute conversation with you neighbor and you might find out what every female on your block does wrong?! Talk to someone at church and you might hear about how she can't connect with any of the ladies at church. LADIES it should not be so.
I am thankful that all that may be true, BUT because of Jesus and his example we women can have wonderful, loving, supportive relationships with other woman. There are woman out there who will love you, listen to you, pray with you, cry with you, and laugh with you. I KNOW this to be true because God has blessed me with some of the most wonderful friendships a girl could have. Some I see all the time and some I don't, but I KNOW if I needed anything any of them would be right there. I KNOW they are thinking of me and lifting me up in prayer. Some of my GF's are so busy they can't EVER pick up the phone... if they no telling what those little ones would get into... but just knowing they are there and the kind of friends they are gives me comfort...
So, IF you are my GF let me tell you something... I love you. I want you to know that you are a HUGE blessing to me and you bring comfort to my soul. I thank God for you!!! IT IS AN HONOR to be considered your friend!!! Thank you all for letting me be me and loving me with all your heart!!! YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!!
First of all, growing up I didn't have good relationships with girls... I don't know if that is just natural or if it was me. I had a bestie in middle school and I was happy, she was all I needed. I went to a new school in high school and again I had one really close female friendship. I was just one of those girls that HATED drama and liked hang'n with the boys more!!! I knew that something was missing though. I wanted to connect with other girls and just be me... I wondered if that would ever really be possible...
I mean if you watch any TV besides HGTV and Food network, you know we have an issue these days of females being VICIOUS!!! Hateful, conniving, man-stealing, self-worshipping FEMALES!!! Turn on the TV for 5 minutes and you will see that the more nurturing sex is not so nurturing these days!!! I could REALLY go off on a tangit now, but I'll try to stay on track with what I'm saying!!! Have a 2 minute conversation with you neighbor and you might find out what every female on your block does wrong?! Talk to someone at church and you might hear about how she can't connect with any of the ladies at church. LADIES it should not be so.
I am thankful that all that may be true, BUT because of Jesus and his example we women can have wonderful, loving, supportive relationships with other woman. There are woman out there who will love you, listen to you, pray with you, cry with you, and laugh with you. I KNOW this to be true because God has blessed me with some of the most wonderful friendships a girl could have. Some I see all the time and some I don't, but I KNOW if I needed anything any of them would be right there. I KNOW they are thinking of me and lifting me up in prayer. Some of my GF's are so busy they can't EVER pick up the phone... if they no telling what those little ones would get into... but just knowing they are there and the kind of friends they are gives me comfort...
So, IF you are my GF let me tell you something... I love you. I want you to know that you are a HUGE blessing to me and you bring comfort to my soul. I thank God for you!!! IT IS AN HONOR to be considered your friend!!! Thank you all for letting me be me and loving me with all your heart!!! YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!!
Times like these...
The Bible says "give honor to whom honor is due". In proverbs it says "let another man praise you and not your own lips". This post is an attempt to give honor and praise to some special people in my life. As you know my mom is in the hospital facing a very serious situation. This is the first time in my life that I have had to rely completely on my faith and trust in the Lord. This is the first time I have had to look at what I believe and say is this (my faith) enough to see me through. Do I REALLY believe if I have to let her go that we WILL meet again someday? IS JESUS ENOUGH??? I have to say that God has been so faithful to bring me peace and comfort that HE has given me no choice... I have to believe because He has proven himself faithful and true. One of the ways he has shown me his faithfulness is with the people he has placed in my life.
The first person that God has been so kind and faithful to share with me is my husband. He is a rock for me. He listens when I need to talk. He gives me his strong embrace when I need someone to hold me up. His silent presence gives me courage. He knows just when to lighten the moment with a well timed joke. He is patient and kind. He is the kind of husband that the world tells you doesn't exist. I am so thankful that the Lord chose me to be his wife. There is security in knowing that He REALLY loves me!!!
There is a very good reason that I have the world's greatest husband... He has the most amazing MOM... She is ALWAYS there when I need her. My mother-n-love is my Naomi... She is someone I can talk to and cry with. I don't have to worry about my house being clean or my every move being examined by her. I have heard so many horror stories about "the inlaws", but I have been so EXTRA-ordinarily blessed with the world's greatest!!! She makes me laugh and she tells me the truth. She treats me like a daughter and not "my sons wife"... She is my friend in every way. But, when it comes to needing something this is where she stands out from the rest... She just does whatever needs to be done. I never have to ask. Last night when I was just too emotionally exhausted to function she took care of everything without even needing to be asked... I love you DLG!!! You are AMAZING and NO ONE ever lets you know how wonderful you are, but you ARE the best part of our family!!!!! You are a HUGE blessing in my life...
In a day of Jersey Shore, DH of Hollywood, and The Bachelor you might be convinced that females cannot get along. Reality shows have shown the worst of girl relationships just like TV has us convinced there are no good men out there... This is such a shame. The friendship between two woman can be one of the most rewarding relationships. I have been so blessed with the best friends. I'm so thankful for my friend Gayla. She is a what the bible calls a "a virtuous woman whose value is above rubies". There is not an area in this life that we don't connect on. There is not a place where her wisdom has not touched my life. Gayla you make me laugh. You tell the truth in the most wonderful way. You lift me up when I'm down you and you bring me back to earth when I'm full of myself. I'm so thankful to be walking this narrow road with you. It's rare to know that another woman loves you and genuinely celebrates your success!!! YOU ARE A TRUE FRIEND. Thank you for being here for me when I have needed you. Thank you for all that you have done... babysitting, cleaning, listening, praying... I LOVE YOU!!!
In times like this the people who love you step up and do what needs to be done. They PROVE their love by their actions... I'm am so thankful. I am so blessed. God is so faithful and so true. JESUS IS ENOUGH. When the Bible says "My grace is sufficient for you. My strength is made perfect in your weakness." This is what it means... When the circumstances of this life are hard to bear God sends his grace and mercy so you can make it through. You all have been God's grace and mercy to me!!!
The first person that God has been so kind and faithful to share with me is my husband. He is a rock for me. He listens when I need to talk. He gives me his strong embrace when I need someone to hold me up. His silent presence gives me courage. He knows just when to lighten the moment with a well timed joke. He is patient and kind. He is the kind of husband that the world tells you doesn't exist. I am so thankful that the Lord chose me to be his wife. There is security in knowing that He REALLY loves me!!!
There is a very good reason that I have the world's greatest husband... He has the most amazing MOM... She is ALWAYS there when I need her. My mother-n-love is my Naomi... She is someone I can talk to and cry with. I don't have to worry about my house being clean or my every move being examined by her. I have heard so many horror stories about "the inlaws", but I have been so EXTRA-ordinarily blessed with the world's greatest!!! She makes me laugh and she tells me the truth. She treats me like a daughter and not "my sons wife"... She is my friend in every way. But, when it comes to needing something this is where she stands out from the rest... She just does whatever needs to be done. I never have to ask. Last night when I was just too emotionally exhausted to function she took care of everything without even needing to be asked... I love you DLG!!! You are AMAZING and NO ONE ever lets you know how wonderful you are, but you ARE the best part of our family!!!!! You are a HUGE blessing in my life...
In a day of Jersey Shore, DH of Hollywood, and The Bachelor you might be convinced that females cannot get along. Reality shows have shown the worst of girl relationships just like TV has us convinced there are no good men out there... This is such a shame. The friendship between two woman can be one of the most rewarding relationships. I have been so blessed with the best friends. I'm so thankful for my friend Gayla. She is a what the bible calls a "a virtuous woman whose value is above rubies". There is not an area in this life that we don't connect on. There is not a place where her wisdom has not touched my life. Gayla you make me laugh. You tell the truth in the most wonderful way. You lift me up when I'm down you and you bring me back to earth when I'm full of myself. I'm so thankful to be walking this narrow road with you. It's rare to know that another woman loves you and genuinely celebrates your success!!! YOU ARE A TRUE FRIEND. Thank you for being here for me when I have needed you. Thank you for all that you have done... babysitting, cleaning, listening, praying... I LOVE YOU!!!
In times like this the people who love you step up and do what needs to be done. They PROVE their love by their actions... I'm am so thankful. I am so blessed. God is so faithful and so true. JESUS IS ENOUGH. When the Bible says "My grace is sufficient for you. My strength is made perfect in your weakness." This is what it means... When the circumstances of this life are hard to bear God sends his grace and mercy so you can make it through. You all have been God's grace and mercy to me!!!
Saturday, February 4, 2012
A gift from God...
"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights." James 1:17
The last two weeks have been out of the ordinary. If you don't know I have 4 children, 2 that are home-schooled and 2 toddlers. I also have 2 dogs that we got for Christmas (I don't know what I was thinking). We also have a busy house most of the time with people in and out. This is all a big job on a regular basis, but recently my mom has been in the hospital, and I want to be with her as much as I can. That's hard to do with all this going on at our house. I don't want to neglect my family and my home. This is where my gift from above comes in...
God has given me an EXTRA-ordinary friend. She is the kind of friend that everyone needs. She is the kind of friend that would do ANYTHING for you. If fact other people tell her all the time I can't believe all you do for Angela. The thing is though a friend is more than laughter and good times. There are a lot of people who want to be around for the good times and the fun, but are no where to be found when you need someone. There are a lot of people who want to be there to comfort you when you're down, but don't want to put themselves out to help you do anything. I'm not talking about the friends who wish they could do something for me. I know there are people who will read this and think I'm talking about them, but I'm not. I know who would be here IF they could.
The prodigal son had the kind of friends who were around for the party. The kind that when you have lots of money and fun they hang around, but when the hard times come they are not around. He had the kind of friends that were no where to be found when he needed them. Those kind of friends are good for laughs and entertainment, but nothing else.
God has been so kind to me. He said "Trust me". Lean not on my own understanding and He will direct my paths. So, when I come to a crisis moment and I think what am I going to do?! All I have to do is call my friend.
"Your own friend, and your father's friend, do not forsake; neither go into your brother's house in the day of calamity: for better is a neighbor (friend) that is near than a brother far off." Proverbs 27:10
Friends are PRICELESS. Friends are VALUABLE. Friends are comforters. Friends are helpers. The Bible says that "a friend loves at all times". I could write a whole other post on what LOVE is. What LOVE is not is an emotion. LOVE is ACTION!!! So, whatever ACTION a person needs a friend does because they LOVE. If they need a hug, a good cry, a laugh wonderful.... but if they need babysitting and dishwashing... IF they need dog walking or dinner made even better... A good friend sees a need and doesn't even have to be asked... they JUST DO IT!!! I may not be this kind of friend, but I am learning from one of the best what it takes to be a good friend...
FAITH MARIE... You are a GIFT from ABOVE. I want to THANK YOU for everything you have ever done for me. Your kindness and humility are a breath of fresh air. In a world where everyone puts themselves FIRST, you stand out as an example of true friendship. I thank God for you all the time. I know being my friend has been more like a job, but I love you and I appreciate knowing that I can call on you... I'm also thankful for your unconditional love and sweet spirit. I LOVE YOU!!!
The last two weeks have been out of the ordinary. If you don't know I have 4 children, 2 that are home-schooled and 2 toddlers. I also have 2 dogs that we got for Christmas (I don't know what I was thinking). We also have a busy house most of the time with people in and out. This is all a big job on a regular basis, but recently my mom has been in the hospital, and I want to be with her as much as I can. That's hard to do with all this going on at our house. I don't want to neglect my family and my home. This is where my gift from above comes in...
God has given me an EXTRA-ordinary friend. She is the kind of friend that everyone needs. She is the kind of friend that would do ANYTHING for you. If fact other people tell her all the time I can't believe all you do for Angela. The thing is though a friend is more than laughter and good times. There are a lot of people who want to be around for the good times and the fun, but are no where to be found when you need someone. There are a lot of people who want to be there to comfort you when you're down, but don't want to put themselves out to help you do anything. I'm not talking about the friends who wish they could do something for me. I know there are people who will read this and think I'm talking about them, but I'm not. I know who would be here IF they could.
The prodigal son had the kind of friends who were around for the party. The kind that when you have lots of money and fun they hang around, but when the hard times come they are not around. He had the kind of friends that were no where to be found when he needed them. Those kind of friends are good for laughs and entertainment, but nothing else.
God has been so kind to me. He said "Trust me". Lean not on my own understanding and He will direct my paths. So, when I come to a crisis moment and I think what am I going to do?! All I have to do is call my friend.
"Your own friend, and your father's friend, do not forsake; neither go into your brother's house in the day of calamity: for better is a neighbor (friend) that is near than a brother far off." Proverbs 27:10
Friends are PRICELESS. Friends are VALUABLE. Friends are comforters. Friends are helpers. The Bible says that "a friend loves at all times". I could write a whole other post on what LOVE is. What LOVE is not is an emotion. LOVE is ACTION!!! So, whatever ACTION a person needs a friend does because they LOVE. If they need a hug, a good cry, a laugh wonderful.... but if they need babysitting and dishwashing... IF they need dog walking or dinner made even better... A good friend sees a need and doesn't even have to be asked... they JUST DO IT!!! I may not be this kind of friend, but I am learning from one of the best what it takes to be a good friend...
FAITH MARIE... You are a GIFT from ABOVE. I want to THANK YOU for everything you have ever done for me. Your kindness and humility are a breath of fresh air. In a world where everyone puts themselves FIRST, you stand out as an example of true friendship. I thank God for you all the time. I know being my friend has been more like a job, but I love you and I appreciate knowing that I can call on you... I'm also thankful for your unconditional love and sweet spirit. I LOVE YOU!!!
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Peace...
My mind is full of troubles this morning... We thought my mom was improving, but that's not the case. My brother called me last night and said the Doctors don't know what is going on with her and she is getting worse. It was a shock. We had been thinking that her troubles would be behind us soon. This all happened yesterday and the amazing thing is yesterday in my time with the Lord I was in John 14.
John 14:14 "If you ask any thing in my name, I will do it."
John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace, I give unto you: not as the world gives peace, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
Don't you know I needed that last night when I got that phone call. Jesus KNOWS just what we need. I need his peace... Not as the world gives it through food, drink, relationships... but real lasting peace. That chapter talks about Jesus preparing a place for us. Yes we need to know this place is not our home. We need to be reminded that someday there will be no more dying, no more sickness, no more pain, no more good byes, no more crying... NO MORE!!! We need to know that.
John 14:16 "And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you FOREVER."
That Comforter rushed in that hospital room last night, and while we stood and prayed over my mom spoke those words of John 14 to my soul. That Comforter brought me peace in the midst of my raging storm. In the middle of my feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. In the middle of my dark thoughts and worries about the future the Comforter spoke words of peace into my heart and soothed away my fears.
This morning my heart is still heavy... As I was dwelling again on the future my little one came and climbed in my lap. He doesn't know anything except me. If I'm there that's all he needs for peace. Completely unaware of the worries of the world he sits here with me smiling and playing. Doing anything to make me laugh with the most radiant, confident smile on his face. He has me what more could he need or want. In that moment Jesus reminded me of the child like faith he desires of us. He reminded me that in Him is perfect peace. He reminded me that I could smile and rest in His presence. He reminded me that as long as I have him I have all I need.
Thank you, Lord for knowing. You are not a distant, unseen, unfeeling God. You are here with me now. You care and before I knew I needed anything you had spoken you're words freshly to my heart. Thank you!!!!
John 14:14 "If you ask any thing in my name, I will do it."
John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace, I give unto you: not as the world gives peace, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
Don't you know I needed that last night when I got that phone call. Jesus KNOWS just what we need. I need his peace... Not as the world gives it through food, drink, relationships... but real lasting peace. That chapter talks about Jesus preparing a place for us. Yes we need to know this place is not our home. We need to be reminded that someday there will be no more dying, no more sickness, no more pain, no more good byes, no more crying... NO MORE!!! We need to know that.
John 14:16 "And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you FOREVER."
That Comforter rushed in that hospital room last night, and while we stood and prayed over my mom spoke those words of John 14 to my soul. That Comforter brought me peace in the midst of my raging storm. In the middle of my feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. In the middle of my dark thoughts and worries about the future the Comforter spoke words of peace into my heart and soothed away my fears.
This morning my heart is still heavy... As I was dwelling again on the future my little one came and climbed in my lap. He doesn't know anything except me. If I'm there that's all he needs for peace. Completely unaware of the worries of the world he sits here with me smiling and playing. Doing anything to make me laugh with the most radiant, confident smile on his face. He has me what more could he need or want. In that moment Jesus reminded me of the child like faith he desires of us. He reminded me that in Him is perfect peace. He reminded me that I could smile and rest in His presence. He reminded me that as long as I have him I have all I need.
Thank you, Lord for knowing. You are not a distant, unseen, unfeeling God. You are here with me now. You care and before I knew I needed anything you had spoken you're words freshly to my heart. Thank you!!!!
Thursday, January 5, 2012
One Week...
Well, it's the end of the first week of 2012 and already it's been a long year...
My mom who had been diagnosed with stage four lung cancer last year battled through it this last year and was declared cancer free in September. This week she was admitted into ICU because she had pneumonia and we were told that she has a hole in her lung, where half has been removed, that has not healed. This hole the Dr. said could be the result of more cancer. After a lifetime it felt like we received the wonderful news that my mom is still cancer free. Praise the Lord. However, she will need surgery to repair the hole in her lung.
Isn't it amazing how slowly time can creep by when you are waiting for news. I feel like half of the year has gone by already waiting on this news. The truth though is that it's been one week, thankfully Lord willing I will be able to enjoy the rest of this year watching my mom recover and gain strength after her surgery. One more day, week, or year is a blessing, but the struggle of this week has made me long for home more and more. I long for that day when we will be in heaven with Our God and we will be his people. I can't wait for the no mores, no more tears, no more pain... I can't wait for all the good. Mostly I can't wait to see Him face to face. The one who will wipe away our tears. The One who gave His life for me. The One who longed for fellowship with me so much that He would stop at nothing to make sure I was there with HIM.
This One Week has made me long for You more than ever.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Our New Editions...
"All I want for Christmas is a dog." says my 6 year old son. He has been begging for a dog for 2 years. How can a parent deprive a child of such a request??? So, we took the plunge... not once, but twice. We came home with two puppies. WHAT WAS I THINKING!!! All jokes aside they are adorable and smart, but they are a lot of work. Up late at night and constantly watching to make sure they aren't going to the bathroom in the house. Since I have always shared my bed with my babies and nursed I didn't really have a problem with being up or loosing sleep with newborns... These two have their days and nights mixed up sleeping all day when the kids want to play and staying up all night when mom and dad want to sleep.
I've never been a dog person... I would laugh at people who made their dogs their children, but I gotta say these two are growing on me... turning me into a mushy dog lover.
My neighbor asked me yesterday what kind of drugs I was on to have 4 children and 2 puppies... Testimony to how much work these little creatures are... Well, I'm not on any drugs, but that might change...
Anyway, my sweet boy got his request and seeing the boy with his dog is one of the sweetest things I have ever witnessed so all the hardship is worth the delight I see in my boy.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Keepers
I received this in an email and thought it was worth sharing!!!
I grew up in the 40's/50's with practical parents. A mother, God love her, who washed aluminum foil after she cooked in it, then reused it. She was the original recycle queen, before they had a name for it..... A father who was happier getting old shoes fixed than buying new ones.
Their marriage was good, their dreams focused. Their best friends lived barely a wave away.
I can see them now, Dad in trousers, tee shirt and a hat and Mom in a house dress, lawn mower in one hand, and dish-towel in the other. It was the time for fixing things. A curtain rod, the kitchen radio, screen door, the oven door, the hem in a dress. Things we keep.
It was a way of life, and sometimes it made me crazy. All that re-fixing, eating, renewing, I wanted just once to be wasteful. Waste meant affluence. Throwing things away meant you knew there'd always be more.
But then my mother died, and on that clear summer's night, in the warmth of the hospital room, I was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't any more.
Sometimes, what we care about most gets all used up and goes away....never to return. So... While we have it..... it's best we love it.... And care for it... And fix it when it's broken........ And heal it when it's sick.
This is true. For marriage....... And old cars.... And children with bad report cards...... And dogs with bad hips...... And aging parents.........And grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it. Some things we keep. Like a best friend that moved away or a classmate we grew up with.
There are just some things that make life important, like people we know who are special........ And so, we keep them close!
8 THINGS GOD WON'T ASK ON THAT DAY.
1... God won't ask what kind of car you drove. He'll ask how many people you drove who didn't have transportation.
2... God won't ask the square footage of your house, He'll ask how many people you welcomed into your home.
3... God won't ask about the clothes you had in your closet. He'll ask how many you helped to clothe.
4... God won't ask what your highest salary was. He'll ask if you compromised your character to obtain it.
5... God won't ask what your job title was. He'll ask if you performed your job to the best of your ability.
6... God won't ask how many friends you had. He'll ask how many people to whom you were a friend.
7... God won't ask in what neighborhood you lived. He'll ask how you treated your neighbors.
8... God won't ask about the color of your skin, He'll ask about the content of your character.
I grew up in the 40's/50's with practical parents. A mother, God love her, who washed aluminum foil after she cooked in it, then reused it. She was the original recycle queen, before they had a name for it..... A father who was happier getting old shoes fixed than buying new ones.
Their marriage was good, their dreams focused. Their best friends lived barely a wave away.
I can see them now, Dad in trousers, tee shirt and a hat and Mom in a house dress, lawn mower in one hand, and dish-towel in the other. It was the time for fixing things. A curtain rod, the kitchen radio, screen door, the oven door, the hem in a dress. Things we keep.
It was a way of life, and sometimes it made me crazy. All that re-fixing, eating, renewing, I wanted just once to be wasteful. Waste meant affluence. Throwing things away meant you knew there'd always be more.
But then my mother died, and on that clear summer's night, in the warmth of the hospital room, I was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't any more.
Sometimes, what we care about most gets all used up and goes away....never to return. So... While we have it..... it's best we love it.... And care for it... And fix it when it's broken........ And heal it when it's sick.
This is true. For marriage....... And old cars.... And children with bad report cards...... And dogs with bad hips...... And aging parents.........And grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it. Some things we keep. Like a best friend that moved away or a classmate we grew up with.
There are just some things that make life important, like people we know who are special........ And so, we keep them close!
8 THINGS GOD WON'T ASK ON THAT DAY.
1... God won't ask what kind of car you drove. He'll ask how many people you drove who didn't have transportation.
2... God won't ask the square footage of your house, He'll ask how many people you welcomed into your home.
3... God won't ask about the clothes you had in your closet. He'll ask how many you helped to clothe.
4... God won't ask what your highest salary was. He'll ask if you compromised your character to obtain it.
5... God won't ask what your job title was. He'll ask if you performed your job to the best of your ability.
6... God won't ask how many friends you had. He'll ask how many people to whom you were a friend.
7... God won't ask in what neighborhood you lived. He'll ask how you treated your neighbors.
8... God won't ask about the color of your skin, He'll ask about the content of your character.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Joseph and Brooke
I've had 2 friends lose children lately. One of them had an 11 yr old son who had bravely battled cancer for the last few years. The other friend had just given birth to a long awaited baby girl and she passed away that same day. My Mom was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer around Christmas time... she has been completely healed. This all leaves me to wonder WHY? WHY??? I know all the "christian" answers. I know that sometimes children die. It's just hard to fathom how these Moms get up the next day while the world is going about it's "normal" and they have to function. How do Mothers and Fathers function after the loss of a child? I know God's grace is sufficient... not because I know first hand, but because His Word says so. His Peace passes understanding when we need peace. I know at a time like this when the worst possible thing in the world has happened you have to cling to the promises of God. I don't know how they do it?! I don't know WHY this has happened?? BUT, what I do know is that this has made me think about how I have my children and I need to cherish them they way these mothers would if they could. I need to hold them close and be patient with them. I need to sit down and talk to them. I need to think before I speak. I need to put aside things that don't matter. I need to hug them and hold them when they will let me. Life is precious and we have no guarentee that tomorrow will come. We have NO Promises from God that tomorrow will be the same as it was today. We have ONLY now. As far as the Moms that I mentioned they are forever changed and an empty place will always be there. A sadness we can't really understand unless we have been there, but we can show them our love and let them cry on our shoulders. We can make them food. We can run errands for them. We can do anything to help them with the day to day. AND we can remember their children and cherish our own. So, for Joseph and Brooke I will do my best to honor what God has shown me through your lives and WE WILL SEE YOU AGAIN!!! Rest in Peace.
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