My mind is full of troubles this morning... We thought my mom was improving, but that's not the case. My brother called me last night and said the Doctors don't know what is going on with her and she is getting worse. It was a shock. We had been thinking that her troubles would be behind us soon. This all happened yesterday and the amazing thing is yesterday in my time with the Lord I was in John 14.
John 14:14 "If you ask any thing in my name, I will do it."
John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace, I give unto you: not as the world gives peace, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
Don't you know I needed that last night when I got that phone call. Jesus KNOWS just what we need. I need his peace... Not as the world gives it through food, drink, relationships... but real lasting peace. That chapter talks about Jesus preparing a place for us. Yes we need to know this place is not our home. We need to be reminded that someday there will be no more dying, no more sickness, no more pain, no more good byes, no more crying... NO MORE!!! We need to know that.
John 14:16 "And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you FOREVER."
That Comforter rushed in that hospital room last night, and while we stood and prayed over my mom spoke those words of John 14 to my soul. That Comforter brought me peace in the midst of my raging storm. In the middle of my feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. In the middle of my dark thoughts and worries about the future the Comforter spoke words of peace into my heart and soothed away my fears.
This morning my heart is still heavy... As I was dwelling again on the future my little one came and climbed in my lap. He doesn't know anything except me. If I'm there that's all he needs for peace. Completely unaware of the worries of the world he sits here with me smiling and playing. Doing anything to make me laugh with the most radiant, confident smile on his face. He has me what more could he need or want. In that moment Jesus reminded me of the child like faith he desires of us. He reminded me that in Him is perfect peace. He reminded me that I could smile and rest in His presence. He reminded me that as long as I have him I have all I need.
Thank you, Lord for knowing. You are not a distant, unseen, unfeeling God. You are here with me now. You care and before I knew I needed anything you had spoken you're words freshly to my heart. Thank you!!!!