Don't let me crash.
Girrrllllll.... I am fighting mad right now. After spending the afternoon trying to find a good recipe for dinner, cooking said recipe and thinking that I had done pretty well, I did NOT get the reception I wanted. The fire rose up from the not very buried depths of my soul.
You know what I did, because you do it too... I went on a silent rant that went something like this... "Do you people have any idea how much of my life is consumed by slaving away for you? Without a thank you or job well done? Do I get a raise or any help without begging for it??????" I could go on, in fact I have been going on for hours, silently letting them all know just what I think.
My whole night was ruined over how ungrateful these people can be. My attitude soured by a lack of appreciation. I'm just a MAD WHITE WOMAN right now... and then of course the verses that I have memorized come flooding in right at the moment that I don't want them to. How dare the Spirit of God interrupt my pity party with the Bible?!?!?
Verses like "Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory: but in LOWLINESS of mind let each esteem others (like my family) better than themselves. Look NOT every (mad white woman) man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others. Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus. WHO, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: BUT MADE HIMSELF OF NO REPUTATION, and took upon himself the form of a SERVANT, and was made in the likeness of men" Philippians 2:3-7
As if that one verse is not enough I have to remember Jesus saying "The son of man came not to be served, but to serve."
Who am I that I would take offense at serving my family with out thanks? I know I've been bought with a price, called to serve and love just as my Savior served. Who am I to become sullen and angry? Who am I to allow my pride to be wounded with Christ as my example of humble service and obedience to his Father's will?
Before, I get all Madea on people around here, it would do me well to remember that Paul said "And WHATEVER you do, do it heartily, AS UNTO THE LORD, and not unto men; knowing that of the Lord you shall receive the reward of the inheritance: FOR YOU SERVE THE LORD CHRIST." Col 3:23-24
My reward comes from the one I serve... So, I better get my own mind right and remember just who I have been saved to serve... Jesus Christ.
How can this "Mad White Woman" be mad after I remember what Jesus has done for me?
"But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and by his stripes we are healed." Is 53:5
Madea, put the gun away!!!